I was looking at the wedding photos of my brother taken last summer. Oh, they had a wonderful wedding, almost the perfect wedding anyone could imagine. I even silently wished I had a wedding like that: perfectly planned ceremony and party, happy couple, a bride with a small waistline. *cough*
I was supposed to give a speech during the party, as requested by my sister in-law. The idea totally excited me. I had so much to talk about. The moment she asked, I have constructed images and sentences inside my head. This was no brainer! I’ve known my brother since we were small and I clearly remember our petty fights, those that involved boxing (kick boxing or normal, whatever made us happy depending on the occassion), extortion and blackmail. I gleam at the happy memories (we had lots) we have while growing up. Fun times, fun times.
The wedding came and went and I wasn’t able to give that speech, much to my regret.
I chickened out.
Like an unprepared school girl hiding behind her mother’s skirt, I said so many excuses and reasons just not to be on stage with a mic in hand. Truth is, I am terrible with public speaking. Let me write a speech, a script for a drama (used to do a lot of that in high school) but just not put me in front of everyone. If a genie appears to grant me three wishes, I am sure one of that is to erase my fear of talking in front of people.
Why I’m suddenly wanting to change myself? Because today is my birthday and I am getting older – probably high time to eliminate those shy feelings. But still I don’t know how many more birthdays will come until I get over the public speaking phobia I have.
Interesting enough, my horoscope says I can be an actress. Oh well, that wouldn’t happen because I won’t have the courage to speak on awards night!
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award nights, huh! made me smile!
have a great birthday, grace! may all your wishes, including eliminating your shy feelings, come true!
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Happy Birthday and all your wishes to become true:)
Hope you had a great birthday yesterday!
post some pixes if you can…
Oi mahadlok diay ka og storya sa public? I thought you were really good in reporting and answering our teacher’s questions in HS. That could still be categorized as public speaking… Anyways, hope your wishes come true… Pag kaslon na si pristine, mag speech baya ang mommy ana!
It’s nice to see you in person like that
A day late, but I wish you a very happy birthday, and many happy returns. And don’t worry too much about changing yourself. I’m crap at public speaking too – but over the years I’ve decided that it doesn’t matter. Nobody’s perfect, after all, and I do have different qualities – and so do you! 
I’m reading this post 3 years after you posted this comment Sabine and now you’re gone. Forever. I miss you, still do.
Happy Birthday!!! I’m sure you could be an actress! When you’re filming there aren’t a lot of people around!
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Grace! Belated Happy Birthday!
didn’t know and couldn’t believe you have stage fright
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